Friday, February 5, 2010

Future Personal Trainer.... Oh-Yah!!!


I have casually mentioned before that I want to eventually be a personal trainer and sort-of "pay it forward". I have had just about every problem in the book, in life and pertaining to weight, so I totally understand. I get it. Plus I am learning everything I can... ON MY OWN! Therefore, I think that would make me an excellent trainer. I have the experience, the passion and, oh yah, I'm an excellent people person!

My sister and I both share this goal. We both want to be trainers and be able to help other people get in shape on a budget. Since we have decided this is what we want to do... I sent away for the ACSM (Academy College of Sports Medicine) study guide and materials. I am officially studying to be a personal trainer! I'm SO excited!


My goal is to keep studying until my sister gets home from her internship (the end of April). Then we'll study together for a couple of weeks and if all goes as planned, we'll both take our exam sometime in May... or even June, 2010. How awesome is that? I'm totally excited!

The only thing I'm nervous about is the whole anatomy part of it. I am great learning exercises, forms and even nutrition. But ask me the muscles of the body or what connects to what and I'm like a blonde in a library.... completely blank! I have a lot to learn in that respect in order to be ready for the exam. Add that to my regular studies (paralegal degree), my job, my kid, the gym and 3-day training... and I have a seriously full load!

BUT...

I'm young(ish)! I can handle it. I have to work harder now so I can get to where I want to be in life! I need to get to the point where I can help as many people as possible and also have the freedom to live the fun, active life I want to live with my son!

It's hella hard being a single mom, I'm not gonna lie. For a while I thought I could just live of government assistance and "just scrape by" but I don't want that anymore. I don't wanna "just survive" and wait for some fairytale prince charming to sweep me off my feet and make everything all better. If there's one thing I've learned in my life it's that you can never depend on anyone but yourself. So, I have to do what I can to make my life what I want it to be! And what I want it to be is an active life without money worries and nothing but happy, Monkey-centered memories!

Wish me luck... I have a LOT of studying and hard work ahead of me! Oy-vey!!!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Website Review: Healthy Child, Healthy World


I received this video via email and I can honestly say it has changed the way I think. This is mostly for Mommies & Daddies & Grandparents of young kiddos, but I think everyone should read my review on this and check out the video/website for yourself.

A Wake-Up Story from Healthy Child Healthy World.


Do you realize the kinds of things you're feeding your children? Simple things like Aspartame (for an example) that are in everything "sugar-free" or "diet". I am totally guilty of letting my son have a sip or two of my diet coke while on a "Mommie-Monkey Date" or letting him chew a piece of my Extra SUGAR FREE gum whenever he wants. I figured "it's just a small piece of gum. What harm could it possibly do?" or "it's just a little sip of diet coke. it's not going to hurt him any."

WRONG!

Here's some of the things Aspartame can do to kids, per the FDA:

It can cause “high levels of this amino acid [phenylalanine] in body fluids and can cause brain damage.”

That's just a general warning. Everything is amplified for kiddos. For more on my Aspartame research, read this.

Forget about Aspartame, how about mercury, lead and pesticides? Do you know how many other chemicals you have in your home that your child is breathing in, touching and exposing themselves to that could be the reason for "illnesses" or chronic "issues"? What about the air in your home and/or car?

How about Bisphenol-A (aka BPA)? Have you done any research on that? I know we have all seen those water bottles that say "bpa free" but do you realize just how harsh BPA is on your body (or your child's body)? Do you know what kind of ailments you have to look forward to from overexposure to BPA? Check this out!

This is just a fraction of the information I found on this website. I highly recommend you spend some time reading some of the articles on this website and educated yourself. I guarantee you will learn something new, even if you think you know it all already. Knowledge is power, dear reader!

Please... especially if you have children... do your part to protect our future generation from the chemicals and sicknesses that our generation has created.

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~

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Product Review: Green & Black Chocolate


I think I just found my kinda-healthy, not-so-guilty pleasure!

Have you tried Green & Black's Chocolate? It's SO yummy! Last week I was shopping at an organic store when I found it... it was White Chocolate flavor... my FAVORITE!!! I, of course, bought it and about died (in a good way, of course!) when I tried it! White chocolate isn't the very best for you (nothing white is) but it was made from all whole, organic products.

I keep hearing that raw dark chocolate is the best for you. So I bought some Green & Black 70% dark chocolate at Walgreen's. It cost me $3.29 for a single bar, but it's so rich and completely craving-quenching that you can honestly have one bar over an entire week. That's what I'm doing.

A single serving is 12 mini squares, 240 calories, 17 fat, 0 sodium, 19 carbs, 4 fiber, 12 sugar and 3 protein. Unless you're seriously addicted to dark chocolate, you'll probably only have a fraction of that for a serving. I have had 3 - 6 squares for my treat and that has been plenty for me.

Keep in mind that although the numbers are high, a) you probably won't eat a full serving in one sitting so cut those numbers in half or thirds and b) it's more about the quality than the quantity... it's natural ingredients versus things that have been so severely processed to keep those numbers down so you'll think it's ok to eat a whole bar. This is so intense and pure that you really don't need much to satisfy a craving.

Here's the ingredients:

Organic Chocolate Liquor, Organic Raw Cane Sugar, Organic Cocoa Butter, Soy Lecithin, Organic Vanilla Extract and Organic Whole Milk Powder.

That's it! Nothing you can't pronounce. NO ASPARTAME!!!! Everything is organic and pure. Even the sugar (typically a big "no no" but hella lot better than aspartame) is natural and organic! It's the purest form of CANDY I have seen anywhere. And for those of you who want to drown in chocolate when you're cramping up a storm of crimson lady-hate, this is seriously a guilt-free solution!

If you haven't already tried it, make a $3.29 investment and give it a try. Considering a normal candy bar is approximately $0.89 - $1.29 each and you get a single serving from it, $3.29 for approximately 9 smaller servings (trust me, that's all you'll want) is around $0.37 per serving. You do the math! It saves you money and it's better for you! Enjoy!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~

PS- Be sure to let me know if/when you try it and if you like it or not!
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Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Product Review: The Firm Wave


This weekend, my sister texted me and told me to check out this new thing she saw on TV called a Firm Wave.

It was funny because as she was texting me, she sounded like she was quoting the infomercial. "The Firm Wave can give you a full body workout from the comfort of your home!" and my favorite "but wait... there's more! For a limited time only..." blah, blah, blah! So anyway I reluctantly checked out the website.

I was actually pleasantly surprised. I watched the "informational video" on their website and got sucked in, just like my sister was! Here... check it out for yourself!



So, what didja think? Doesn't it look cool? My sister has had a few "snowed in" days lately (in Tennessee) so I decided to get one for her so she has something to do. She's in a small dorm-type room with nothing but a pair of weights (exercise wise) so I'm hoping this gives her something else to do.

The more I thought about it after I made that purchase, the more I wanted one. I started this fitness journey and this blog with the idea of doing it on a budget. But here's the deal, I could split this in two monthly payments so it only ended up being (after tax and shipping) $39.95 a month for two months. In my mind, it's not that bad and since I just got my student loan, I had a little extra to spend so I decided to do it!

I should have it in "7 to 10 business days" and I can't wait to try it and tell you all about it. I'm seriously so excited to try it! It'll be a nice workout for when Monkey is sleeping (since it should be relatively quiet) or for early in the morning when I need a quick 10-20 minute workout to start my day!!!

In the meantime, I'd love to hear what fitness-related infomercials you've succumbed to. In other words, what fitness-related products did you purchase thanks to a catchy infomercial. Did it end up being a good purchase or a waste of money? How long did you use it for? Do you still use it? What's your infomercial-style review of the product?

I'll tell you one infomercial purchase I made that I still love (3 years later) is the TurboJam and ChaLEAN Extreme dvd sets. But that's another review for another day!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Friday, January 29, 2010

NUMB3RS


Oh man! Thanks to the newest followers of my blog (Deborah, Jane and Kris @ Savannah Shape Up Sisters!), I just saw the most amazing set of numbers.

I, for one, hate numbers. Well, most of them, anyway. It's really frustrating to me to add, subtract, multiply, etc. I'm a HUGE fan of calculators for this very reason!


But anyway, check out these cool numbers that Kris posted:

1 x 8 + 1 = 9
12 x 8 + 2 = 98
123 x 8 + 3 = 987
1234 x 8 + 4 = 9876
12345 x 8 + 5 = 98765
123456 x 8 + 6 = 987654
1234567 x 8 + 7 = 9876543
12345678 x 8 + 8 = 98765432
123456789 x 8 + 9 = 987654321

1 x 9 + 2 = 11
12 x 9 + 3 = 111
123 x 9 + 4 = 1111
1234 x 9 + 5 = 11111
12345 x 9 + 6 = 111111
123456 x 9 + 7 = 1111111
1234567 x 9 + 8 = 11111111
12345678 x 9 + 9 = 111111111
123456789 x 9 +10= 1111111111

9 x 9 + 7 = 88
98 x 9 + 6 = 888
987 x 9 + 5 = 8888
9876 x 9 + 4 = 88888
98765 x 9 + 3 = 888888
987654 x 9 + 2 = 8888888
9876543 x 9 + 1 = 88888888
98765432 x 9 + 0 = 888888888

Brilliant, isn't it?

And look at this symmetry:

1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 121
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321
1111111 x 1111111 = 1 234567654321
11111111 x 11111111 = 123456787654321
111111111 x 111111111 = 12345678987654321

Mind Boggling...

Now, take a look at this...

101%

From a strictly mathematical viewpoint:

What Equals 100% ?

What does it mean to give MORE than 100% ?

Ever wonder about those people who say they
are giving more than 100% ?

We have all been in situations where someone wants you to GIVE OVER 100%...

How about ACHIEVING 101% ?

What equals 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help
answer these questions:

If:

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Is represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then:

H-A-R-D-W-O- R- K

8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

And:

K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E

11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96%

But:

A-T-T-I-T-U- D-E

1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100%

THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:

L-O-V-E-O-F- G-O-D
12+15+22+5+15+ 6+7+15+4 = 101%

Isn't that amazing?!?!?! I love it!!!! Like I said, I don't like numbers. But these numbers are stinkin' cool! Thanks for sharing, Kris! :-)

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Garbage In = Garbage Out


Ok, so as I'm sure you recall in my previous post about Aspartame, that stuff is a killer. But even before I realized how bad it was, I noticed the horrible headaches it gives me. Like seriously, sometimes it's debilitating... I can't get out of bed or open my eyes. Well, like an idiot, I decided to try one more time to see if that's where my headaches were coming from.

Yesterday was my sister's birthday (Happy Birthday, Tee-Tee!!!!) and since she's in Tennessee, we celebrated via webcam. It was a big huge pain because our connection sucked so we kept freezing or getting disconnected. Total bummer. But anyway, I had a TON of running around to do yesterday so decided to move our weekly pizza night from Saturday to last night. So we go our regular Papa Murphy's Vegetarian D'Light (super thin crust) pizza.

Mmmmm... my mouth is salivating just thinking about that yummy thin crust slice of paradise topped with delicious veggies. Mmmmm!!!!!

But! The dude that made our pizza did it wrong. It's supposed to be a white sauce (garlic) with a little bit of cheese and spinach, tomato and mushrooms. I asked for no mushrooms but black olives instead. How did it turn out? It had red sauce, lots of cheese and had green peppers, onions, tomato and black olives. No spinach! I was totally bummed. Luckily we had spinach so I could add it to the pizza. But then the whole red sauce instead of white totally threw me off.

Ok, so anyway, we had that... which was fine! But then we also had some of their cheesy bread. HUGE mistake! Of course it was yummy, but so horribly bad for me. At least the pizza is a super thin crust... thinner than a cracker. But this was ALL DOUGH. So thick and covered with butter and a little cheese. I told myself I was only going to have 1 piece... but can you ever just stop at one?

Hell-to-the-no! Not me, apparently!

So I had a second. And a third. Add that to my 3 tiny slices of veggie pizza and that left me with a super full belly and....

.... you guessed it ....

A horrible headache! I mean s
eriously, when will I learn? I wasn't planning to eat that darn cheesy bread... and I didn't even want it. I honestly like eating clean. I like the way I feel when I eat good. I like the way all the fruits and veggies and grains taste. I like that I feel so full for so long. And I like that I have no headaches when I eat that way.

But no, I had to eat GARBAGE last night. And I mean, I'm not beating myself up or anything like that. But it's nice to see that when you eat garbage, you feel like garbage. It was kinda confirmation for me to know that I'm doing the right thing by eating clean and exercising. I much prefer that feeling over the "carb-coma" feeling.

So, as the saying goes, "garbage in equals garbage out" and it's so true! The more junk you eat, the worse you'll feel (and look, for that matter) but the better you eat, the better you'll feel & look! And it's true. These last two weeks of eating clean, my skin looks way better, I have more energy and am actually sleeping almost completely through the night. Before eating clean, I had bad skin (oily/dry patches, breakouts that looked like mini-planets, etc.) and felt so bloated all the time. Plus it would take me several hours to fall asleep and then I'd be up every hour or so during the night.

I'm tellin' ya... clean/healthy eating is the way to go! I now know the difference (and the consequences) and I much prefer eating clean over eating junk!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Aspartame a.k.a. "Chemical Poison"


Yah, you read that right... the FDA has actually dubbed aspartame as a "chemical poison". Now seriously, do you really want to sweeten your yogurt or drink a beverage with a "chemical poison"? I sure don't!

I'm going to show quote some of the research I've come across in a minute but first, you get my opinion. [insert evil laugh here] Muah ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha! (yah, it was a long laugh. I got carried away!)

Ok, moving on... I have been getting horrible migraines for about as long as I can remember. I've often said I should buy stock in Excedrin because I buy so dang much of it. I hate swallowing pills. Like seriously... seriously hate it! Excedering has become an almost daily pill-popping adventure for me.

For the last several months, I started to pay more attention to when I got my migraines and noticed that 9 times out of 10, it was shortly after drinking a diet coke. I checked the ingredients and saw "aspartame" and remembered hearing from a friend about how bad that is for your body. So I, the research savvy legal professional that I am, did some research. Then I started noticing other drinks and foods I was consuming with aspartame in it and, no shocker here, I got horrible migraines with those, too.

Oh man! Ok, so I have totally cut out aspartame this last week and....

... drum-roll please ....

NO MIGRAINES! None whatsoever! Not even a minor one!

I did have one headache this week but I am extremely pleased to announce it's simply because I had a guh-zillion bobby-pins holding my hair up in a super sexy "do", several of which were way too friggin tight. Thus, the headache! No diet coke. No sugar-free anything. No aspartame-sweetened yogurt. And no effin migraines! It's a miracle!

Oh, by the way, anything that is "sugar free" or "light" or "diet" is likely sweetened with aspartame or something from the aspartame family. They suck us in to this because we are all watching our calories and trying to lose weight so we go for the diet/light products. BUT, it's so much more worth the extra 50 calories to get a regular version of something so you are not ingesting chemical poison like aspartame. Don't you agree? Let me tell you, doing regular yogurt, no soda at all, and regular treats (not sugar-free) this week, I have still lost weight, still had energy and felt even more amazing than I did eating all that diet crap.

Just think about it!

Ok, so here's some actual scientifical (yes, I you read that right) research!

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A statement issued by the FDA (Food & Drug Administration) can be found here. But this is a significant portion of it:
In 2005, ERF (European Ramazzini Foundation) published new findings of a long-term feeding study on aspartame conducted in rats. Scientists from ERF concluded from their study that aspartame causes cancer and that current uses and consumption of the sweetener should be re-evaluated.

Check out this video:




This is from the Doorway to Discovery website:
Aspartame, the artificial sweetener used to make Nutrasweet / Equal and sometimes labeled as phenylalanine in products, has been the subject of heated controversy—both because of safety issues and the shady circumstances surrounding its approval. Considering possible connections between aspartame and diseases such as brain tumors, brain lesions and lymphoma, and taking into account alleged conflicts of interest during the approval process, you owe it to yourself to learn the facts—not just what the lobbyists and manufacturer want you to know.
I agree. Do your research. Learn facts for yourself. I am providing you some of the tidbits I've found in my research, but you should see it for yourself.


Check this out from Dr. Mercola's website (he's a "natural" doctor):
Aspartame accounts for over 75 percent of the adverse reactions to food additives reported to the FDA. Many of these reactions are very serious including seizures and death.(1) A few of the 90 different documented symptoms listed in the report as being caused by aspartame include: Headaches/migraines, dizziness, seizures, nausea, numbness, muscle spasms, weight gain, rashes, depression, fatigue, irritability, tachycardia, insomnia, vision problems, hearing loss, heart palpitations, breathing difficulties, anxiety attacks, slurred speech, loss of taste, tinnitus, vertigo, memory loss, and joint pain.

Or this from the Aspartame Detox Program:
Aspartame poisoning is commonly misdiagnosed because aspartame symptoms mock textbook ‘disease’ symptoms, such as Grave’s Disease.

Here's a link to the Aspartame Information Center. It's a good website to "click" around, learn more about aspartame and get your questions answered.


Here is a little blurb form an article on NaturalNews.com:
Investigation revealed that aspartame had caused tumors, seizures, brain holes, and death in many of the studies. All negative findings had been altered or scrubbed from the final reports delivered to the FDA when aspartame was first reviewed.

Click here to see a timeline of aspartame as provided on Rense.com.

And here's another article on the same website titled:
FDA Hid Research That Damned Aspartame
Fatal Studies Should Have Blocked NutraSweet Approval

This is an interesting website that provides a lot of research and Doctor opinion's on Aspartame. It even has flyers you can print out and share. Really, I think this website provides an enormous wealth of information.

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So, I know that was a lot of information to throw at you. But seriously, check it out for yourself. I do what I can to share with you what I learn, but sometimes you just have to see it with your own eyes to be able to believe it. Don't take my word for it... research! Knowledge is power, my friends. I don't know about you, but I want to live a long and healthy life. And I want my son to have a long and healthy life too. Aspartame is a one-way ticket to doom and I'm so happy I decided to jump off that train!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~



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Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Weekly Weigh-In


Today was my regular Tuesday weigh-in and I am pleased to say I am down 1.4 lbs... well, actually 1.2 since last Tuesday.

Also, this week I logged 15 miles and 2 hours of weight-lifting for my 3-day training! I feel so accomplished right now! It's totally just the beginning of my training, but 15 miles in a week is pretty darn good for week #1.

Plus, I have definitely kept to my 80/20 rule and feel really good about the choices I've made. In fact, I'm about to go to lunch right now for leftover veggie enchiladas and then walk to walgreens for a once-a-week treat. Hmmm, what to get? Of course I only want a bite or two... maybe I'll get some jolly ranchers.... or red vines and just have a couple.

Note: Candy is not good for you. Ever! But per my trainer and nutritionist, if you have a craving, have a bite or two. Don't deprive yourself. In fact, having a small treat every day is OK. It's all about moderation and self-control!!!!!

Anyway, week #1 of training... TOTAL SUCCESS!!!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~


UPDATE: I ended up having those Reece's 100 calorie sticks. They were good... too good to stop at just one. But I feel ok with my choice... it's my "off" day but I'll be walking later so I'll walk off what I just ate! Thanks for all your feedback... y'all are the best!!!!
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Monday, January 25, 2010

I'm In The News!


Check out the link below... I'm in the news! It's for my 3-Day and how I'm walking for Ma! Feel free to share with everyone you know, along with the link to our blog (Ta-Ta Sisterhood) so we can, together, raise the funds and awareness to find a cure for breast cancer!

Beckie is in the news!!!!!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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My "80/20" Rule


I was just re-reading some of the comments on my previous postings and found enough on my "80/20" rule that I decided to write about it.

First of all, let me start by saying.... I'm human! I know it's a shocker, but it's true! Being human, I make mistakes.... all the time. I try to learn from them, but sometimes I don't so I repeat mistakes.

I think accepting this simple fact is the first step to living a healthy lifestyle. I accept it. Since I know I'm human, I know I'm not always going to make the best food or exercise decisions. Some days I'm going to sit at home watching movies or playing on my computer when I should be exercising. Some days I'm going to eat 2 helpings of my healthy dinner or have froyo topped with chocolate chips. Some days I'm going to stick 100% to eating clean and getting 30 minutes (minimum) exercise.

So, here's my 80/20 rule. I eat clean 80% of the time and the other 20% I don't go crazy, but I don't stress about what I'm eating. I exercise, as scheduled, 80% of the time and the other 20% I "go with the flow" and do whatever I feel like doing.

Living with my 80/20 mentality is much less stressful then the "all or nothing" mentality I had a few months ago. My all-or-nothing mentality is what kept me going on the yo-yo diets... I'd do so good and then the one time I slipped and ate a king size candy bar, that was it. It was over. I was ruined. So I sabotaged myself with more and more candy, fried food any quit exercise all together. Then I'd get sick and tired of how I felt so I'd start the next fad diet. Same thing... over and over and over and over again!

Then I realized... I'll never stick to a diet 100% because life happens. Sometimes you just can't plan for the kind of day you're going to have or the situations you may be in. But I don't go crazy. I know now that if I have an emotional day and end up eating an entire candy bar or a large froyo with chocolate chips or half of a pizza (veggie, of course!) then it's not "over". I can have that emotional time and the next instance (not the next DAY, but the next meal, or the next hour) I can get back on track. I try to do a little exercise to make up for it or cut back on my next meal, but if I don't... oh well. I know I can make up for it at some point over the next week.

Here's the thing I really want to stress to my readers, especially while I'm on this journey myself.... DON'T STRESS!!!!! Eating healthy should be a choice you are completely confident with. Exercise should make you feel good. You shouldn't necessarily be "easy" on yourself and let everything go (cuz that's what got us fat, riiiiiiiight?) but it shouldn't be something to stress about. Enjoy the process... it's a journey with highs and lows. Embrace them. Overcoming obstacles is what makes you stronger. Giving in to temptation is what makes you human.

Granted, every choice is a choice you have to make. Good or bad, it's your choice. But so is how you react to those choices. It's not worth the extra stress. In fact, as I'm sure you are aware, stressing builds up the cortisone around your belly which is why those of us who stress a lot have bigger bellies. Stress does nothing good for you.

It's good to stay focused. It's good to be motivated. It's good to do your best to stay on track. But please don't stress about it. Give yourself the 80/20 mentality. Accept that you're human but 80% of the time, give it your all.

I hope that answers the questions to may have had.

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Sunday, January 24, 2010

This Weeks' Goals


Tonight we did an almost-3-mile "nature walk" at the Riparian Reserve. It was nice being in "nature" and walking around a mild hiking trail. Monkey loved seeing all the ducks, birds, etc.

It was a relatively quiet walk so I had a lot of time to think. My head started to hurt after a while because I was planning my week, then changing plans, modifying plans, etc.

Eventually, I decided I needed to come home and make some plans for the week. I find I do better with just about everything when I make goals for myself. So, my goals for this week are as follows...

In General:
- 2 liters of water each day (or more)
- 30 minutes of exercise (minimum) each day
- 10 miles walking/training
- 3 days of resistance training
- Clean eating 80% of the time
- Bring my own lunch (homemade, of course) this week
- 7 hour (minimum) sleep each night

More specifically...

Monday: 30 minutes resistance, 2 mile walk
Tuesday: Off (Date w/ Monkey, then BL)
Wednesday: 2 mile walk, 20 min elliptical
Thursday: 30 minutes resistance, 2 mile walk
Friday: 2 mile walk, 30 min elliptical
Saturday: 3 mile walk, 30 minutes resistance
Sunday: Zumba, 2 mile walk

What are your goals for the week?

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Saturday, January 23, 2010

A "Freezing" Walk 2 Remember


This morning we all decided to go for a walk. "We all" was me, Ma, Monkey and the old man. It took about a half hour to decide which route we would take since a certain OLD MAN is impossible to please, but we finally decided on a route.

It was freezing outside... well, freezing for Arizona! But I usually end up jogging with Monkey, turning around to meet up with the parentals and walking back with them. So since I'm normally all hot and sweaty, I decided not to bring my jacket.

BIG MISTAKE! But at least Monkey was all bundled up and ready for the cold!


I was very cold the whole way there and back. We had to walk a little slower than normal, too, because the parentals weren't used to walking that far and didn't want to "push" to hard, I s'pose. But anyway, we made it! It ended up being just shy of 4 miles and felt great! However, after my biggest loser workout last night, and then the long walk today, I'm hella sore and tired. I obviously have a lot of training to do to be able to do the 3-day.

When we got home from the walk, we made pizza. Now, before you get all mad at me, here's what our pizza was made of: whole grain flatbread (100 calories), 1/4 cup mozzerella cheese (80 calories) and 1/2 c. pizza sauce (60 calories). It was so yummy!



I cut Monkey's up for him and sprinkled it with some Parmesan cheese... he said it was the "best pizza ever!"


Tomorrow's agenda: an hour at the gym, either Zumba or half-hour weights and half-hour cardio!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~


PS- Greta, the BL Last Chance Workout dvd has a few different sections (warm up, cool down, last chance workout, upper body tone and lower body tone) that you can add together, so anywhere from 30 minutes to an hour. The set I did was 30 minutes.
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Friday, January 22, 2010

Product Review: Biggest Loser "Last Chance Workout" DVD


Oh man! The Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout DVD is no joke, friends. It was pretty freakin' intense. Course, I used 15 lb weights so it was hella hard, but even if I chose to not use weights, it's an intense workout!


Oh man, I was so tired, even 10 minutes into it, but I kept with it. My muscles are killing me as I'm typing this... it's awesome! My least favorite part was push-ups,but I did them anyway and I feel so good! This last week of no exercise has sucked, but this workout more than made up for it.


By the way, this dvd is currently on sale at Target for $10.00, which is why I bought it. If you don't have it, I recommend getting it. Even if you go to the gym or whatever, this is a good workout for days you don't feel like hitting the gym. Heck, even Monkey got into it.


So anyway, I'm proud of myself for getting my exercise in. I love the soreness my body is feeling. As a former bootcamp instructor of mine used to say: "If it doesn't hurt, it isn't working!" So true! If you are feeling that muscle burning an hour or two after a workout, or even a day or two, then you know it's good stuff! I'm addicted to this feeling! :-)


I'll be going to the gym tomorrow. Minimum 30 minutes, but aiming for 60 minutes. I'm planning to do the elliptical. My backup plan is the treadmill. It seems like whenever I plan to do the elliptical, they're all taken. If I plan to do the treadmill, they're all taken. It's like the people know what I want to do and rush to 'em all so I can't have one! haha. I'm just kidding. But anyway, I'm looking forward to my cardio tomorrow and rockin' out to my new jams! Woo-hoo!!!!!


~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Freakin' FANTASTIC Friday!!!


Oh my goodness, if only I could put into words the way I seriously love today. Ok, so first of all, our weather here is AMAZING! It's been so dark and cloudy and raining like crazy. I love it! The wind yesterday was so strong it blew over deeply rooted trees and everything. In fact, for the first time (I can remember), we had a tornado warning last night. SERIOUSLY?!?!!?!? We never have tornado's... or even "warning"s. It was exciting!


The "lake" outside my office yesterday:



The view from my office this morning:


Wednesday night Monkey and I went for a long walk over to this park by our house. It was very cold, but we sat on these rocks, just talking and coloring pictures together, for an hour or so. It was awesome... until we were frozen. Then it was time to go home! But seriously, I LOVE this weather!!!!

Our view at the park:


Monkey deep in thought:


Us, doin' what we do best, takin' pix!


So anyway, it's a beautifully overcast day... a "perfect" day to me! And I have to go pick up my textbooks (school started Tuesday, homework is due tomorrow... figured it's time to get my books now! lol) and was lucky enough to get out of work for it. I told my boss where I had to go to get my books and because of the storm, he gave me a half day. So, even though I should be working right now (ahem!) I'm updating my blog and then leaving to get Monkey, drive in this crazy rain and get my textbooks! What a day!

Also, because I'm leaving early enough, that should give me plenty of time to exercise tonight. THANK GOD!!!! I'm feeling like such a tub-a-lard these days... haven't exercised all week. I seriously crave it. I just haven't had time. Well, correction. I've had time. I've just been so seriously tired and emotionally drained, I have chosen to attempt to get caught up on rest & sleep instead of torturing myself further. But, enough is enough. I need to get my butt back in action. I'm eating SO good (even when I have a "treat", I still don't "blow it") and I just need to get back on track with exercise!

In fact, Monkey and I had a date last night. We went to Pita Jungle (I LOVE that place) and instead of ordering two separate meals, or even a pita pizza (which I love), we just shared some roasted red bell pepper hummus, a plate full of cucumber and we each had a pita. Not bad at all. The afterward, he wanted fro-yo so we got some, but just a little and only fruit and nuts on it. No candy. Not hovering over the bowl. Not a huge bowl like we would normally get. I was perfectly content and happy with the choices I made. I had strawberry fro-yo with strawberries and pecans. Monkey had mango-tango fro-yo with strawberries and kiwi. Yummm!!!

So back to today, I'm so excited to only have to work a half day and be able to go out and enjoy this rain! I'm even more excited that I'll have time to exercise later. The key, of course, will be to actually exercise and not lounge around like a typical rainy day. I'd be happy with even 30 minutes of good sweating, but I'm aiming for an hour. I'd like to do some weights today, too, because I haven't in forever. I need as much muscle as I can get to keep my metabolism revved, be in tip-top shape for the 3-day and to make all the fat go bye-bye!

I'm gonna make veggie stir-fry for dinner! Yummm! For lunch I have chili... we made it fresh from raw beans (every color), peppers, celery, tomato and onion (all organic), and a little chili powder for that extra "kick". Soooooo yummy!!!!!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Thursday, January 21, 2010

Happy 101 Award


Awww, man I'm so blessed! I got my third award from the beautiful Katie at Katie J Is On Her Way! If y'all haven't checked out her blog, you need to. This lady is amazing! Thank you, Katie!

I now have to pass this award on to 10 other bloggers and list 10 things that make me happy. So, here goes...

10 Things That Make Me Happy:
1. My Son (my world, my #1 reason for anything I do!)
2. Music (singing, writing, performing, teaching and just plain listening)
3. Exercise (yes, I said it. Exercise makes me happy!)
4. Blogging (and reading fellow blogs)
5. SHOPPING!!!!!
6. Hiking/Picnic's At The Park
7. Christmas (including Winter time in general!)
8. Church (and church activities... I am very happy learning about and praising God!)
9. Learning New Things... I love when I learn something new. It makes me feel smart and gives me a little more POW-WA!
10. And last, but certainly not least, PINK!!! Anything and everything PINK makes me happy! I'd live in a completely pink house, drive a pink car and use 100% pink everything if I could!!!!

10 Blogs That Make Me Happy:
1. Katie J Is On Her Way (I couldn't help it... I love your blog, Katie!!)
2. 266
3. Natalia-Baage
4. Big Bottom Blogger
5. My Rockin' Journey
6. Fighting Like A Girl
7. CBG Blog (Note to CBG: I can't leave any comments on your page and there's no email associated with your profile... been trying to show some love on ur blog but can't. Hope you see this and can get it fixed soon!!!!)
8. Fitness is a journey, not a weigh of life
9. It's not over till the thin girl sings
10. Tightening The Corset... Again

I hate only giving 10 because I love ALL the blogs I read, but these 10 have been especially enlightening in the last few days. Thank you all for the support you give me and for openly sharing your journey with the world!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Blogs To Follow


Readers, I have mentioned a few blogs to you before, but in case you forgot or are new to my blog, please check out the following blogs. They are new blogs and needs more followers. Please stop by, follow them and show your support! Thanks!

The Devine Secrets of the Ta-Ta Sisterhood
My team Ta-Ta Sisterhood for the Susan G. Komen 3-Day For The Cure. We are walking 60 miles in 3 days. Our goal is to raise as much funds and awareness as we can to help find a cure for breast cancer!

My Rockin' Journey
My sister's blog about her internship in Tennessee with the Navy (as a civilian) and whatever else she feels like talking about!

Fighting Like a Girl
My mom's breast cancer journey.

Thanks for joining in this with me. I think you'll enjoy all of the blogs... of course not as much as you love mine (wink wink!!) but they're family so I love 'em!!!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Product Review: Extra Sugar-Free Gum


As much as they plug "Extra Sugar-Free Gum" on The Biggest Loser and embarrassing as it is to admit this, I love it!

I'm addicted!

I wouldn't go so far as to say that it curbs a sweet craving I may be having (like they "plug" on the show), but it does occupy me so I'm not thinking about the next piece of food I can shove in my mouth.

As I'm writing this, I'm chewing on delicious peppermint flavor and I love it! The thing about this particular flavor is that peppermint is a natural "icky tummy" soother so if my tummy is upset, I chew a piece and... all better! Same for Monkey... if his tummy is yucky, I give him a stick of this and within a few minutes I hear "I feel MUCH better now, Mommie!" Needless to say, I have packs of peppermint Extra gum everywhere... in my purse, in the car, in Monkey's backpack, in our room, in the kitchen, etc.

The thing I like about the fruity flavors is that the fruit flavor isn't overpowered by the mint. Other brands of gum that have "fruit" flavors, it tastes like you're eating a strawberry and candy cane at the same time. Ick! But this brand, I don't taste the mint at all. And it's not an overly sugary taste either. Sure, it's not the same as actually eating fruit, but it's really yummy!

My sister and I love this gum. It was funny, they recently came out with a couple new flavors. I noticed it when I was shopping with Monkey. I always take a quick peek to see what flavors are available at whichever store I'm at. So when I saw new flavors, I started jumping up and down with a big ol' grin on my face like a kid in a candy store! lol.

(O my goodness, I can't believe I'm actually blogging about GUM!)

So anyway, I love this gum. I hate the headaches I sometimes get from chewing it all day long, but it definitely helps me keep my cravings and snacking under control. If you haven't already, try all the flavors and let me know what your favorite is!!!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Article: Breast Cancer Prevention Through Diet


Breast Cancer Prevention Through Diet
Apple and Orange Comparison What should I eat to prevent cancer?

By Amy Boone Thompson, BSED, CCS, LWMC, HLC
For Active.com


The American Cancer Society predicts that this year, 178,480 women and 2,030 men will learn they have invasive breast cancer. Current statistics predict that one in seven women will develop breast cancer at some point in her life. And the number of men diagnosed with breast cancer has increased by 25 percent in the past 25 years.


What is Breast Cancer?
Cells in your body are constantly forming and reproducing. When cells grow in an uncontrolled manner, a mass of tissue forms, called a tumor. Tumors can be benign (non-cancerous) or malignant (cancerous). If a cancerous growth is left untreated, the cells can attack and damage healthy breast tissues. It can then spread to other areas of the body.

Early detection and treatment can increase a person's chance of surviving the cancer and saving the breast. Lifestyle factors such as minimizing stress, engaging in regular physical activity, maintaining a healthy weight and eating a healthy, balanced diet can reduce a person's chances of getting breast cancer.


Which Foods Should You Increase in Your Diet in Order to Get the Best Cancer Prevention Benefits?

Fiber
Consuming insoluble and soluble fiber daily may lower the levels of estrogen in the body. Insoluble fiber promotes regular bowel movement and prevents constipation. It also moves toxins through the intestines more rapidly to reduce absorption. Soluble fiber lowers LDL cholesterol therefore reducing the risk of heart disease and regulating blood sugar.

Insoluble and soluble fibers are found in cruciferous vegetables such as turnips, brussels sprouts, parsley and cabbage; dried fruits like peaches, figs, apricots and prunes; whole grains including wheat bran, wheat germ, oat bran and corn bran; Legumes such as white, pinto beans, kidney beans, seeds and nuts. Strive to get 25-35 grams of fiber per day.

Fruits & Vegetables
Fruits and vegetables are known to contain phytochemicals with antioxidant properties that may prevent cancer. Cruciferous vegetables such as broccoli, cauliflower, kale, cabbage and dark green leafy vegetables are particularly high in phytochemicals.

Also include beta-carotene rich produce like winter squash, carrots and sweet potatoes. Tomatoes, red grapefruit and guava contain lycopene, which is a powerful anti-oxidant. Strawberries, raspberries, blackberries and blueberries are all loaded with vitamin C, folate, fiber and phytonutrients. Eat artichokes and milk thistle for silymarin; it can prevent toxins from absorbing into the liver.

Fats
The body uses omega-3 as an anticoagulant and it can help lower triglycerides. That means they are very useful in preventing cardiovascular disease as well as cancer and important to a balanced diet. Omega-3 fats are found in fish such as salmon, mackerel, sardines and herring. Include fish in your diet two or three times per week. These healthy fats can also be found in green leafy vegetables, soy, tofu, nuts and seeds such as almonds, pine nuts, peanuts and flax seed. Flax is a source of lignan precursors, which are converted inside the body to a weak anti-estrogen. They may be useful in preventing or treating estrogen-responsive tumors. Fresh ground flax is best absorbed and can be added to many of your favorite foods. One or two tablespoons are recommended per day for cancer prevention.

For cooking, marinating and salad dressings use olive or coconut oil. Both are easily digested and converted by the body. No other naturally occurring oil has the high amounts of monounsaturated fats than olive oil offers. Coconut oil has tremendous healing powers and can tolerate high temperatures in cooking.

Proteins
Soy has been the center of debate among Oncologists and scientists for almost two decades. Research is inconclusive as to whether the protein has breast cancer inhibiting or triggering effects.

Until more is known, I recommend clients to continue with a 15 g daily intake of quality soy protein, if they already include it in their diet but not to increase or add soy if they aren't currently using it. Other proteins such as dairy products should be included in a daily diet, one or two servings per day of organic dairy products, (grass fed cattle is preferred). Conjugated linoleic acid is one ingredient found in cow and sheep meat and milk, which has been noted for its anticancer activity.

Additional suggestions:

* Include plenty of fresh herbs and green tea. These can be consumed liberally.
* Drink plenty of water.
* Buy organic whenever possible.


Which foods should you minimize or avoid?

* Trans fats and partially hydrogenated oils
* Alcohol and caffeinated beverages
* Preservatives and dyes
* Packaged and processed foods
* White flour
* Refined sugar

Age Range & Chance of Being Diagnosed with Breast Cancer
30 to 39 - 1 out of 229 (less than .5%)
40 to 49 - 1 out of 68 (about 1.5%)
50 to 59 - 1 out of 37 (3%)
60 to 69 - 1 out of 26 (4%)


Resources:

* American Cancer Society
* www.prevention.com
* www.healthcastle.com
* www.vegetarian-nutrition.info
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Weekly Weigh-In


Ok, so I'm a little bit bummed today. I weighed in and have maintained. I didn't gain, which is a good thing... but I didn't lose, which is a bad thing.


I've completely changed my eating this week from "semi-ok" to "very-good eating-clean". That has really helped me, I think. I'm feeling a lot better, haven't had any migraines and have a bit more energy. On the downside, it's taking a lot of time prepping foods and cooking so I have even less time with Monkey and exercise.


I'm still struggling with time management. Once the rest of the fam turns on the TV at night, I just wanna sit there on the couch with them. Or I use that time to get caught up on email, homework and blogging.


Monkey is going to bed earlier now (around 7/7:30 pm) so that gives me a little more Mommie time... but I've not been using it to my advantage. Yes... I've gotten lunches prepared the night before. Yes... I've gotten caught up on laundry, email and blogging. Yes... I've had relaxing evenings chillin' out with the fam.


BUT...


I haven't really had any exercise this week. Well, I take that back. I did a Walk Away The Pounds video and a few 1-2 mile walk/jogs with Monkey. But that's nothing compared to what my body is used to. I'm used to BOOTCAMP, hours at the gym and lifting 12-20 lb weights.


So, I just need to get my butt back in gear. If I could just pair up exercise with my new eating habits, I'd be a force to be reckoned with. Oh yah!


I'm just taking one day at a time. When I plan too far ahead and something changes, it throws off everything. So for today, I've got all my good foods with me, prepared and ready to go. For exercise, I'll either go to the gym for an hour or if Ma needs me to be home with her, I'll do a dvd... probably Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout! I've been dying to try that!


45-60 minutes of exercise is my goal today!


~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Mmmm.... My Tummy Is So Happy!!!


Oh my goodness! My tummy is SO happy right now!


Ok, so Monkey and I had to be up at the butt-crack of dawn to get Ma to work. We had to leave the house at 7:45 and we usually don't leave till 8:30 or so. BUT, I've been trying to get up earlier every day in hopes of getting my body used to mornings so I can get up and exercise before work.


Anyway, I was running way late (which is totally normal for me!) but thankfully had cut up some strawberries last night. So, I grabbed a bowl and threw in the strawberries, a 4 oz cup of light & fit strawberry yogurt and poured on some Kashi Go-Lean Crunch.



OH-MY-WOW!!!! It was SO yummy! I hate eating in the car but once I took that first bite, I couldn't wait any longer. I had to finish it. I have never been so in love with breakfast... ever!



Then, of course, Monkey heard all my "Mmmm"s and "yummy"s and wanted to try it. He took a bite and, as you can see, he loved it!



Then he said "Mommie, how about I hold the bowl and eat as much as I want". Ugh! No sir! It's MINE! muah-ha-ha-ha! (evil laugh)


Anyhoo, it was delicious!


My tummy is happy!


And that's that.


~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Monday, January 18, 2010

I Don't Do Mornings!


I've said it a hundred times and I'll say it again...


I don't do mornings!


Ugh! Like seriously, it doesn't matter what time it is, how much sleep I had or whatever... I hate mornings. They never work for me.


I have been working really hard to get in bed by 9:30/10:00 pm. I've turned all the lights off, the tv off and even the music off so I can fall asleep quickly and without distraction.


But, my friend, it's NOT working. I'm still exhausted when I wake up. I set my alarm for 6 am, hoping to get up in time to do some exercise before starting my day. But of course, I hit "snooze" a couple times first and don't get my booty out of bed until about 6:20/6:30.


Ugh! Mornings... why do you hate me so much? I try to like you... can't you try to like me?


That's my rant for the day.


**hoping to one day be a morning person!**


~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Sunday, January 17, 2010

Eating Clean Recipe: Almond-Crusted Chicken


Ok, I saw this recipe and thought it looked like something my son would enjoy. I made it tonight and as it turned out, my whole family loved it. But before I give you the recipe, here's my attempt at it!

So first of all, here is how it looked on the website:


Of course mine looked different. Ma helped me by cutting up the chicken (I don't do raw meat! Ick!) They turned out more like chicken nuggets but were really easy to make.


Ma also made some red potatoes with a little olive and garlic. They got a little "crispy" but were yummy just the same!


We also made a cucumber & tomato salad with a little virgin olive oil. Simple, but clean and delicious!


Monkey LOVED this dinner. The chicken was his favorite: "Oh Mommie... these chicken nuggets are sooooo delicious. You did a really really good job!"


So, as promised, here is the recipe:


~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Almond-Crusted Chicken Fingers

Makes 4 servings

Active Time: 20 minutes

Total Time: 40 minutes

Ingredients

  • Canola oil cooking spray
  • 1/2 cup sliced almonds
  • 1/4 cup whole-wheat flour
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons paprika
  • 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
  • 1/2 teaspoon dry mustard
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 1/8 teaspoon freshly ground pepper
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons extra-virgin olive oil
  • 4 large egg whites
  • 1 pound chicken tenders

Preparation

  1. Preheat oven to 475°F. Line a baking sheet with foil. Set a wire rack on the baking sheet and coat it with cooking spray.
  2. Place almonds, flour, paprika, garlic powder, dry mustard, salt and pepper in a food processor; process until the almonds are finely chopped and the paprika is mixed throughout, about 1 minute. With the motor running, drizzle in oil; process until combined. Transfer the mixture to a shallow dish.
  3. Whisk egg whites in a second shallow dish. Add chicken tenders and turn to coat. Transfer each tender to the almond mixture; turn to coat evenly. (Discard any remaining egg white and almond mixture.) Place the tenders on the prepared rack and coat with cooking spray; turn and spray the other side.
  4. Bake the chicken fingers until golden brown, crispy and no longer pink in the center, 20 to 25 minutes.

Nutrition

Per serving: 174 calories; 4 g fat (1 g sat, 2 g mono); 66 mg cholesterol; 4 g carbohydrates; 27 g protein; 1 g fiber; 254 mg sodium; 76 mg potassium.

Nutrition Bonus: Selenium (31% daily value).

Exchanges: 3 very lean meat, 1/2 fat



~*~ Beckie-Lynn~*~
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New Blog!


So I registered for my biggest and greatest journey yesterday, the Susan G. Komen Breast Cancer 3-Day... that means I'll walk 60 miles in 3 days. It's an emotional and completely life-changing event. I will proudly walk for my mom and for all the other moms, sisters, friends, cousins, aunts, co-workers and women everywhere! Everyone deserves a lifetime!


Our team has started a new blog! Please follow us, our journey and our success as we make our contribution to finding a cure for breast cancer!

~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~


PS- I'll blog much more on this topic later!
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Friday, January 15, 2010

"Your Hands" Lyrics


I have heard this song on the radio a few times and have really been touched by the lyrics. Sometimes I just can't put things in to words and this song pretty much says it for me. So anyway, just thought I would share.

The song is called "Your Hands" by JJ Heller.

Enjoy!

I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn't there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
That You would take my pain away

I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crookedly lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

Your hands
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave You when...

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave...
I never leave Your hands


~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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My Music Career... Or Lack Thereof


So I mentioned previously about the fact that I'm a singer but am being held back from a potentially amazing career by my weight. It's a shame. God blessed me with such an amazing gift (my voice) and I feel like I've wasted it away. But when I look back at videos of my performances (at 80 lbs lighter than I am now), there's no way I could perform looking like this.


I have been a singer my whole life. My first performance was singing "I'm a Little Teapot" at church... so my mom tells it. My mom was the choir director at our church so I was raised around music. I've done talent shows through school and have always received awards/standing ovations. In choirs, I've been sort of a "star" in the sense that I was the one the teacher's used for solo's. I was the one with the talent and large range that could fill in for any part in a moment's notice. I was the one that other choir kids wished they could sing like.


As an early teen, I was invited to sing in our adult choir and it was a HUGE honor for me. Our choir put on performances that people traveled from all over to watch. Each service was filled with anywhere from 2,000 to 3,500 people. I sang solos, sang in choirs, sang on specially crafted "teams" and even worked with top Christian artists. I was living the dream...


... until I watched some footage of me. It was a joke. There I was, seriously living my dream-come-true, and didn't even realize just how fat I was. Even worse, I never realized just how horrible I must have looked to others. I was always singing beside beautiful women, tall and thin... and men in top shape... and then there was me: short and "fluffy".


That was it for me.


Seeing the video of my last performance killed it for me. I have sang many a time in front of family and even some friends (and of COURSE Monkey!!!) but I can't actually perform knowing the way I look. It's a shame. I've had a few really good opportunities that I've had to turn down because of how I look and feel. Even worse, I've had some extremely amazing opportunities ripped from my hands at the sight of me. Forget the fact that I have the talent.... I don't have the look. Even in the Christian industry, you need to have a look that sells. And I don't. No one wants to pay money to watch a fat girl sing. It's comical, yes. But not worth the money.


I'm actually not about making the money. My goal is to perform all over but not for money for me. I want to raise money for domestic violence and breast cancer organizations. "A Campaign of Hope" sort of thing. Ooh! Or "singing for hope!" Anyway, my dreams keep getting put off because of my weight. I'm so sick and tired of it. I miss singing more than anyone could possibly know. It was my first love, my first baby! If you could imagine one of your children being lost for many years, longing each and every day for their return but feeling like it may never happen.... that's how I feel. Aside from being a Mommie, music is the only thing that truly makes me happy.


I hate that I'm confined to singing in my own home. I want to sing in choirs. I want to sing duets. I want to record music again. I want to lead worship again. I want to write inspirational music and share it with the world. I want to have my "Singing for HOPE!" ministry and help raise funds and awareness the best way I know how. I want my career...


... but I can't have it until I lose the weight.


Someday I will get my dream... I just hope it's sooner than later. I look forward to a day when I can share my gift with all of you... and even more people! But until then, I just have to keep working on me!


So that's my failed-career-because-of-fatness story for you! What big dream/goal have you missed out on because of your weight struggles???


~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Thursday, January 14, 2010

My Not-So-Clean Day; I Need New Clothes!


Oh man! Today didn't start off as clean as I wanted it too. Ok, first of all, I never thought I'd say this but I'm actually very sore from my Walk Away The Pounds 4-Mile Boosted Walk last night!


The funny thing is, the last mile they were using a toning band and I didn't have one (I own 5 and they're all in storage, go figure!) so I did all the same moves but without the band. I didn't think it would be that great of the workout but let me tell you, it was! My arms are very sore... even without the band. I seriously can't get over it! I keep reaching my hands up above my head to check if they're still sore and... yep! They are! Wow!


My abs are equally as sore. The 4 basic moves are power walking, knee lifts, side steps and kicks. Both the kicks and knee lifts require you to keep a strong core and almost do mini-crunches with each move. Thanks to that, I have sore abs. Amazing!


Anyway, so I wake up this morning, sore and very tired (last night's storm kept me up till the wee hours of the morning) and feeling very lazy. Monkey even said "Mommie, I don't wanna go to school today. Can we stay home and sleep?" Awww.... SO tempting! Believe me. But, bills don't get paid if we stay home and sleep.


I couldn't find anything to wear. I literally tried on every single top I own (even the ones in the dirty clothes pile) and couldn't decide on anything. Of course Monkey thought I looked good in everything (such a sweetheart!) but I thought I looked like a giant, lazy, DIRTY blob! Ugh! I have been trying not to buy any clothes for myself because I don't want to spend a fortune on clothes I'm gonna shrink out of. Plus it's motivation for me to get busy.


BUT... I've had my clothes since I was pregnant (2005) and they're seriously old and worn. Sure, I always look good (if I do say so myself!!!) but I'm bored. I very badly wanna go shopping but can't justify spending insane amounts of money on FAT GIRL clothes just to wear it for a month or two and have to give it away cuz it's too big.


I ended up leaving my house in the very first outfit I tried on. I hate the way I look today even though I've received a few compliments. My jeans are pulled up above my "36 month preggo" belly therefore creating a bit of the "camel toe" effect, so I have to wear long, flow-y shirts to cover it. And then with my jiggle/bat-wing arms, I have to wear either long or 3/4 sleeve shirts or some sort of a jacket over whatever I wear. It's a pain. I can't WAIT to be toned and fit again!


I work for an attorney who almost always wears a tie. We are so unbelievably slow right now so I rarely ever see anyone but him. On days I know clients are coming in, I wear my one pair of black dress slacks (1 1/2 size too big). All the other days, I wear jeans. I try to dress them up as much as possible (heels and nice tops) but some days I just don't care and you can tell because I wear flip flops or sneakers with my jeans. I'd LOVE to dress nicer in the office. I just can't afford it. AND, I'm a bit of a rebel... since my boss hasn't given me the raise he promised a year and a half ago, I don't feel like giving 100%. Stupid, I know.


So for breakfast, I made my typical 2 slices of whole wheat toast with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter spray. Instead of having a yogurt or fruit with it, like an IDIOT I decided to grab a muffin on my way to work. Like a horrible Mother (not really, I know I rock!!), I offered Monkey one, too. So we each got a double chocolate chip muffin from Einstein Bros Bagels on our way to work/school. First of all, eating in the car is something I don't normally approve of. It's not conscious eating and you end up eating too much too fast. But then I got a large iced coffee, black, to go with it. Only, I didn't drink it black. When I got to work, I added flavored creamer to it. Ugh! Awful morning!


BUT! Unlike the "me" of the past, I'm not going to ruin my entire day because of it. I decided not to have a morning snack for two reasons: 1) I'm still full from my carb overloaded breakfast and 2) to save the calories. I did pack my lunch and snacks for today so will stick to the rest of my clean-eating for the day.


Breakfast: 2 slices whole wheat toast & butter spray, double chocolate chip muffin, large iced coffee with way too much flavored creamer.
Snack: none. (actually, I had a stick of Extra gum, peppermint flavor!)
Lunch: brown rice with peppers (red, green, yellow and orange), onions and spinach. sugar-free jell-o.
Snack: raw almonds, yogurt.
Dinner: 2 veggie burgers, steamed broccoli (& possibly other veggies, too!)


My plan for exercise today is: 1 - 2 mile walk with Ma & Monkey, and either the Biggest Loser Power Sculpt or Turbo Jam dvd.


~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Product Review: Walk Away The Pounds


Whew! I just finished doing a 4-mile "boosted" walk away the pounds (by Leslie Sansone) video!


I freaking love these videos for nights like tonight where I just can't get Monkey to get ready in time to get our exercise done before it's dark. After a half hour of trying to get his little booty in motion, I gave up and popped in a DVD instead. Boy! I'm glad I did. I sweat all the way through my two tank tops I was wearing... and don't even get me started on my pants! lol.

So I feel good now. We're about to eat steamed veggies and veggie burgers and I can't wait! My tummy is a-rumblin' fo sho!

If you feel you are too fat to exercise or feel too uncomfortable at the gym (or even can't afford it), I highly recommend any of the Walk Away the Pounds dvd's. ANY of them will give you a good workout. You can go at your own pace and in the comfort of your home. I enjoy it when Ma and Sis join me but sometimes it's nice doing it on my own. Either way, you can seriously make it as intense as you want it and get a good workout even doing the most basic moves!

Check it out if you haven't already!



~*~ Beckie-Lynn ~*~
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